"Anti-Authority"
I wonder if I'm the only one who has a bit of an anti-authority
streak. Sometimes I resist practicing JUST BECAUSE someone told me
I should, or must. Sometimes I even rebel against MYSELF, when I
tell myself that I should or must practice. Even when I understand
that practicing is in my own best interests, I still don't do it.
I have to resort to mental tricks to get myself out of this
particular hole.
One is "Suit up and show up." All I ask myself is the very tiniest
of tasks, like taking a harmonica out of the case and putting it
right back again. That's all -- not even playing it. The idea is
to "reprogram myself" to do some practice-releated tasks until some
part of me says, "Oh, alright, I'll play a little something."
Another trick I play on myself is to ask myself, "What happens if I
practice [every day, today, once this week, etc.]?" By turning the
work into an experiment rather than an exercise in compliance, I can
often get myself out of this mental trap.
Another is to give myself permission to practice anything EXCEPT
what I think I "should" be practicing. Just to get myself back in
physical contact with the harp. Something just for fun, or
something comfortable and familiar.
I admonish myself to get my money's worth -- from my lessons, from
my gear.
I invite myself to try something completely new or different.
I try to imagine what my life would be like if I NEVER practiced.
I take a day off.
I go to a jam and come face to face with how much better I want to be.
Other tricks or ideas?
Thanks in advance,
Elizabeth H. (aka "Tin Lizzie")